As I was trying to figure that all out for myself and looking after others as I was doing so, I slowly forgot what little me naturally knew how to do, take care of myself and my own wellbeing. See myself as someone who mattered just as she did. I drifted further and further away from who I was. Feeling more and more disconnected from myself and others. Lost and alone. That slowly led to heavy struggles with the dark downfalls of perfectionism and over two decades of severe eating disorders. To the extent where I wrote a goodbye letter to my parents in my late 20s and the only thing that got me out of bed was the thought that if it all gets too hard, I can end it. Let go of the life that felt too heavy and be done. For good.
 
"Serendipitously finding my way to plant medicine, tapping into my gifts as a medicine woman, going through my own dark night of the soul and spiritual awakening."

Eventually I found my way to the other side of all that after years of studies in different parts of the world in healing, mindset, and personal development. Throwing myself in the mercy of my journey of transformation, going into the places in myself I had been running away for so long. Remembering. Doing the work. Coming home to myself.

Later on "serendipitously" finding my way to plant medicine after never touching any kind of psychedelics in my life. And having sworn I never would. It is not for me, I always said. And with the guidance and healing through these beautiful plant teachers, tapping into my ancient gifts as a Medicine Woman and a Cosmic Shaman working through spaces unseen, going through my own dark night of the soul and awakening. And after all that, after 4 decades of searching for something that was inside me all along, I finally know why I am here. As anything else, our careers and ourselves included, it is all in a constant state of transformation, but today I finally know why all what has happened had to happen. What that "somehow helping others" looks like for me. 




No matter how much I've studied, my true teacher into my life's work has been MY LIFE. Spirit. Surrender to the flow with spirit. Each experience, person, job, study, joy, darkness, love and heartbreak has led me into the flow of my true self and true purpose. 

" My work and greatest passion is to help others struggling with their spiritual awakening, lack of self-love, perfectionism, and the feeling of being lost within their own life paths to again find their way back home. (S)trip away all that was never them to begin with.""
 
My work and greatest passion in life is to help others find their way home, to themselves. Connect with their true essence and activate ad remember their sacred soul gifts. Guide people struggling with their spiritual awakening, lack of self-love, alignment and the feelings of being lost within their own life. To be a teacher and educator.
Assist you as you again find your way back home to yourself and reconnect with your innate passions and purpose in life. Remember who you are and what you are here to do and discover. To start living your life through self-worth, self-love, and with recognition of your birthright to joy and happiness. Finally (S)trip away everything that is not YOU. 
 
I do this by holding a sacred and safe space for you, so you are able to unravel without being afraid. Face your shadows and unhealthy stories and beliefs with childlike curiosity. Allow them to be seen and released when you are ready, so they are not weighing you down anymore from being all you can be. I intuitively guide you through the dark with shamanic storytelling, so you can find your own light. Along the way as we journey into you together, I also use my magical, personal healing tools that will aid your individual process of remembrance, tools I have gathered over past decades (and still am) and not shying away from sharing parts of my own story with rawness, authenticity and vulnerability with you either if and when needed.